Letting go

I can't do it. I am not superman. I do not possess the magical power that the characters in the movies get to help them overcome their problems. When is the last time you saw a movie where the hero was the one who lived every moment of his/her life trusting God and just doing their best to live in His will? I am not called to save the world, He already did that. I am a messenger of that, yet somehow He values me enough to allow me my individuality and the talents He gave me to live this life.

I recently found out a friend of mine has cancer. I've lost friends and family before, and some closer than this. I've had friends and family diagnosed with horrid diseases too, but this- this is different. This friend is someone I look up to as someone who strives with all their life to follow the call God put on their life. So here I am, knowing that I can't make the cancer disappear, wanting to offer words of encouragement. I'm trying to think of the best thing to say, when I just stop and listen. And this is what I hear: "let go"

"Leon, dang it, just let go. You don't need to have the answer, you don't need to say a thing. My child is in my care, trust me with your friend's life." I know that Jesus healed people, and I believe that if it is by The Spirit that I am led to then my friend could be healed by Jesus too, but it's not so. I want to heal my friend, I don't have the direction of The Spirit to. I just need to trust God with my friend and with His timing. I will pray earnestly for healing, but if God decides to bring my friend home, who am I to argue? Lord, please please please give my friend healing, but if it is Your will that You should bring my friend home, give me peace and may Your name still be praised.