Can I just say I hate normal? I don't really know why, maybe it's just a reaction to that which is accepted, but I just don't like things that go- well- normally. I much prefer the abnormal, unexpected, out-of-the-ordinary thing that bring excitement to our lives. We have so much that just seems to blow by us without us taking the time to really see anything much in it.
Can I just say I don't even care? Who cares what happens to me tomorrow? If I die, people will be sad. There are people who know me, and will miss me. There will be another generation or two who might hear about me, but within 4 generations I'll be forgotten. Half the presidents of the US are not even remembered by name. Today, tomorrow, they mean nothing if I am not able to contribute to the eternal kingdom. So let me die now that I might live.
Can I just say this world really knows how to grind my gears? Everything I love in this world is pushed to the bottom on the prioritized list we've written up over generations. Jesus? Well that's for Sundays and an occasional Wednesday night. Friends, family, fun? Only after the work is done. Physical activity? Unless you're good enough to go pro, forget about it. You're wasting time when there are bills to pay. Music and creative expression, much less experimentation with the things like inventing, freewriting, etc? Haha, that's even lower than sports.
Can I just say I feel like I'm writing to nobody but everybody? Who even reads these? I probably get more out of this than anyone else, when I go back and read my own writing it can sometimes be inspirational... but mostly it's just a trip down memory lane. And sometimes I wonder if anything I have to say is worth reading to others. If everyone in the world read my work, would it contribute to a better world? Oh sure, I can be cliche and say let's all just love and forgive and not be violent, but in all honesty my advice to people is just to think things through, know why they do what they do...
Can I just say that I have probably already said too much? I'm done.
